me irl


This is an actual portrait of me. I’ve been living a lie on the internet as a 25-year-old pan-Asian woman, I’m actually a middle-aged Irish lounge singer from the ’70s. It was nice knowing you all.


On old photos

What is the appeal in #ThrowbackThursdays? Why is so enthralling to comb through old photos and see how far we’ve come and look at past memories with a particular fondness? Why is nostlagia so hypnotic and inviting? I found myself in a good 20 min deep dive into old photos after encountering these mac booth selfies:

I remember in uni, I loved taking mac booth selfies. Maybe this was ‘cos I didn’t have an iPhone back then, I had a crappy Sony smartphone that – shocker – did not have a front-facing camera. I hardly ever shared selfies of myself, maybe on a “secret” tumblr and on the short-lived dailybooth. But I took mac selfies as a way of private, fun me-time. I like that one of my fave poses was with my mac on my bed and me, sitting on the floor, taking a photo. You can see my messy room in the background. I don’t think I can pull off bangs anymore. I feel more comfortable with glasses now. Fuck, I’ve had these glasses for three years now. I need new ones.

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Sometimes, I get a bit sad as I feel out of place in the world and I encounter something that throws me off or something doesn’t sit right with me. But then, also sometimes, I realise I’m a part of something far greater, and feel grateful that I’m alive and can listen to new music that will eventually be legendary status. Also, I might actually get a chance to witness them live one day, or just, I know I’ll be able to be part of something by being part of a live experience.

On Drake’s More Life

drakeHow do I describe Drake’s new “playlist” More Life? It’s like the feeling you get when you meet a seemingly mysterious yoga instructor who has an ambiguously soft European accent and you think he’s #deep ‘cos he has a beard and isn’t white and you fantasize about what he could be like in bed but then you take a step back and you realise he has ugly tattoos and refers to “periods” as “moon cycles”. That’s how I feel about More Life. Some more pointers here too:

  • Drake samples himself 
  • Did you read that correctly?? He samples HIMSELF like wow what a Kanye move…but it’s by Drake
  • Drake samples J-Lo too, and yes, how dare he
  • He reps for UK with Giggs (he pronounces ‘ting’) & Skepta, for Atlanta with Quavo and Young Thug (sure), for the most beautiful Sampha — wow guys look at Drake supporting all these up & coming artists, totally not riding on them or anything
  • The release includes a recording from his Mum…like Frank Ocean??
  • His “mixtape” shouldn’t fall under his belt but be renamed to “Drake and Friends” ‘cos honestly the best parts of it are the “and friends” bit

This might read like I hate it, but no, I love it. I’ve had More Life on repeat everyday since its release. It features “peak Drake” – it has Drake at his whiniest, at his most sensitive, at his most obnoxious etc. It’s Drake on his now signature wave-rider™ style, a Pitchfork-certified “cultural tourist” and it’s absolutely hypnotic.