A playlist for the sweetest feeling

One time, I was sitting next to my crush and he had his laptop open, his window was on iTunes. I took a peek. I think he had a playlist named after me. I didn’t dare ask about it as it might embarrass him and me probably. I could be wrong, and he might have named a playlist “perp” or something that begins with “p” and it’s just my bad eyesight. But for a moment, it was the sweetest feeling ever. Here’s a playlist for the stickiest, sweetest feeling:

You make me feel like a fool / waiting for you

Cute – D.R.A.M.
Fool – Frankie Cosmos
Shut Up And Kiss Me – Angel Olsen
Lovesick – Orange Juice
Teenage Kicks – The Undertones
Take Me Where The Roses Grow – Mystery Jets
Say Something Loving – The xx
In Your Eyes – BADBADNOTGOOD, Charlotte Day Wilson
You’re The One – Syd, Kaytranada
Thinkin’ About You – Frank Ocean


me irl


This is an actual portrait of me. I’ve been living a lie on the internet as a 25-year-old pan-Asian woman, I’m actually a middle-aged Irish lounge singer from the ’70s. It was nice knowing you all.

On old photos

What is the appeal in #ThrowbackThursdays? Why is so enthralling to comb through old photos and see how far we’ve come and look at past memories with a particular fondness? Why is nostlagia so hypnotic and inviting? I found myself in a good 20 min deep dive into old photos after encountering these mac booth selfies:

I remember in uni, I loved taking mac booth selfies. Maybe this was ‘cos I didn’t have an iPhone back then, I had a crappy Sony smartphone that – shocker – did not have a front-facing camera. I hardly ever shared selfies of myself, maybe on a “secret” tumblr and on the short-lived dailybooth. But I took mac selfies as a way of private, fun me-time. I like that one of my fave poses was with my mac on my bed and me, sitting on the floor, taking a photo. You can see my messy room in the background. I don’t think I can pull off bangs anymore. I feel more comfortable with glasses now. Fuck, I’ve had these glasses for three years now. I need new ones.

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Sometimes, I get a bit sad as I feel out of place in the world and I encounter something that throws me off or something doesn’t sit right with me. But then, also sometimes, I realise I’m a part of something far greater, and feel grateful that I’m alive and can listen to new music that will eventually be legendary status. Also, I might actually get a chance to witness them live one day, or just, I know I’ll be able to be part of something by being part of a live experience.